Raindrops in the Ocean

This week has been so full.  I am finally getting some rest, and waking up at the same time in the same place every day is doing me a world of good.  Being a flight attendant, switching my mornings and evenings depending on my schedule, hopping from city to city has been far more tiring to my spirit than even I realized.  I feel more whole now.

I think the highlight for most people this week was our silence and solitude time on Tuesday.  I curled up in the cleft of the rock (literally) as waves crashed against my little hiding place, eagles and butterflies soared overhead.  For me it was a day of stillness and peace.  I have had so much stirring around inside of me, and yet God did not seem interested in speaking to me about any of it…in fact, I felt He stopped me from bringing it up myself…it was a day to just be.  One of the coolest things about this day was seeing the change in some of the guys…they seemed transformed the next day.  Something in their spirits was calmed, centered, more focussed throughout Wednesday.

Another thing from Tuesday was that I chose to take a stand against the self-contempt which I mentioned in my last post.  I felt that God told me I would see the fruit of those prayers in two to three days.  Sure enough, a couple days passed and the self-contempt which I have been wrestling fell away like chaff.  I think that my prayers on Tuesday were a major part of that, as well as the prayers of my friends, and simply talking about what I was struggling with.  Being honest with the people around me, bringing the struggle into the light siphoned off the death grip it had had on me.

OH!  Excellent news!  Tomorrow Zarha the Stara and I will go to a dance school to talk to them about classes!!!!!!!!  Yay yay yay yay yay.  They are very reasonably priced, and our leaders are searching the budget for funds to help us out in this endeavor.  It feels like such a miracle to me as I have been desiring to be in dance class for years but unable to carve out the time and find the money.  If you are interested in helping to support this dream, please contact the YWAM school or me and let us know.  Yay.  Did I mention yay?

I have more to tell, but I think that is enough for now.  Love you all!  Thanks for coming with me on this journey,

Beth