Raindrops in the Ocean

There have been a few times in my life that I have felt the precision of God as He narrows His focus on an area of my life where I’d rather do it my own way thankyouverymuch. The three times I can remember it is my self protection, where I would rather shut the whole world out than risk…well…anything. Some of you will now pretend you don’t know what I’m talking about, but I think if we are honest we all have times and places we would rather live an illusion than risk the rejection or injury of what is truest and best about us. Fullness of life, however, comes when we are willing to be known and a core essential of the Christian faith, of my faith, is honesty. If we are to follow Christ we are to be known by both God and man. I invite Jesus to peel back the mask, but when He puts His finger on my useless pandering my response is simply “explicative.”

This morning as my friend Jeremy was preaching I managed not to curse out loud. Apparently to be released from anger we must let go of our need to control, including but not limited to pulling away in isolation. Explicative. I don’t know if Jeremy asked or if I just wondered what I am holding on to that I need to let go of, but the Lord began to put His finger on some very specific and personal things I am holding in a grip so tight that my neck and back literally have hurt all week. I know there is freedom in the letting go, and I know there will be no escaping this one. God has my number and my permission.

I know you all want to join in the fun, so I will post the link when the sermon is up on the Father’s House website later this week. It was a penetrating message, and I and I am both hopeful and nervous to see what God will do.